“You have the memory of a goldfish.”
“Oh look. A castle!”
“Oh look. A castle!”
“Oh look. A castle!”
-Meredith Adams-Smart, ladies and gentleman.
CHICAGO! I have some important information to share.
A. Don’t forget to buy your city sticker. The fine outweighs the crime.
B. Life really is a little bit better, down in Bon Temps.
I didn’t make it out of the house tonight.
It happens. Song 234.
There are a lot of people named Sarah.
I know that was among the reasons.
But it wasn’t the only one.
Before there was Frilar and Frilock, but way after Tuck.
There was Punk Rock Sarah.
I remembered the funniest thing today.
Well, funny to me anyway. ♥
Fucking bugs. Song 231.
After I lost my mind the first time and dropped out of the Philosophy department at De Paul I did something big. I packed up and I moved. All the way to North Carolina.
At the time my friend Laura lived in Raleigh with her boyfriend and one night on the phone we decided I should too. I had planned to go to State for a year and then transfer to UNC.
So off I went. Besides being a student, my friend was also a waitress at a place called Charlie Goodnights. Suddenly, I was spending my days walking through a humidity like nothing I had ever known, dodging bugs larger than I had ever seen and my nights moonlighting as an underage stowaway in a comedy club.
I lasted two weeks.
It wasn’t right. And I knew it somehow. But I needed help.
And then one morning I woke up and flipped open the handbook to figure out where my Shakespeare class was. But the book opened instead to a page containing the fees for withdrawing from the university, listed by date. That exact day was the last possible day to get a full refund. So I slammed the book shut. Literally.
That night when my friends got home I told them I was leaving, tomorrow. So, of course, we had a party. And at one point I got a mosquito bite on my leg. Fucking bugs.
The next morning the bite was as big as half a golf ball. And as the drive home went on the pain in my leg expanded. Around Indiana it hurt to stand on. My leg was full of fire from the ankle to the hip. I stayed that night in a hotel trying not to flip out.
By the time I reached my parents driveway I had no other choice but to fall out of the car yelling “Gang green! Scurvy!”, get immediately into my Mom’s car and go straight to the ER. It turned out I had blood poisoning, which simply required a shot in the ass and a couple of days with my leg up.
So there I am, a two-time college drop out, with no idea what the fuck to do, on my parent’s couch watching T.V. I was feeling pretty darn good about myself. I didn’t even call any friends to tell them I was back.
But then Poof! A couple of days later, I ran into an old friend, Bryan, at the gas station anyway. He asked what I was up to, and so, I told him the truth. “Nothing”. And then a couple of days after that, I got a call from our mutual friend, Ryan. He said since I wasn’t doing anything he thought I should come work where he worked, at Reckless Records, on Broadway.
And so, I did.
Reckless Records has been in Chicago for 22 years. And I won’t date myself too precisely here, but I will say that my first Christmas party was at Lounge Ax and at that time, I was still a stowaway.
It is what it is and you are what you are and you do what you do.
Although it feels good to think that even before you knew to look, you could still see the sign.
That town just wasn’t big enough for the both of us.
They still play this and sell this at the Drive In Theater in Door County, WI.
“Hey guys! I think I found the ocean!”
I made two important decisions today. One, was that I am in a position, thanks to marvels of modern technology, to perform a large amount of my work this summer whilst at the pool.
And the other was to make an appointment with a Jungian Psychotherapist. If only poor Frances had been so lucky. It is a significantly less invasive procedure.
So I have been, but true to my own nature, I couldn’t resist a little Google Questing.
Native American Meaning – Ant medicine calls to our attention patience, persistence and endurance.
Chinese Meaning – The Chinese identify the ant as “the righteous insect” and attribute orderliness, virtue, and patriotism to it; an alternate symbolism is subordination, especially that of the tireless and dutiful servant.
Islamic Meaning – Islamic tradition honors the ant as the earthly teacher of Solomon, and an embodiment of wisdom.
Earlier tonight, while sitting in the bathtub reading, I was struck by a sentence. “I can find a perfect bee, but not a perfect me.”
I then watched as an ant stepped out of the crack where the tile meets the tub, one which I have literally dug out and re-caulked at least five times now to no avail. I don’t know why it keeps cracking. It just does.
The ant walked around dutifully for a while back and forth and around and around. Then he walked the grid of the grout like it was a sideways city. Finally, he walked over the edge of the tub and stuck his feelers in my Epson salt laden bath. He paused for a moment and then walked back up the side of the tub and promptly disappeared from where he came.
I could have smooshed him, but I just couldn’t stop laughing about what his report might be, when he gets back home.
Conundrum! Song 229.
For a while I couldn’t sleep.
And it sucked.
It made me feel like a nut.
But now, I can sleep, if I post a song before I try.
No matter how tired I am.
Which is funny. Sort of.
I’d try and explain that, but it’s a big pile of nonsense.
So here’s a quote instead.
“Someday it will help to remember even this.” –Virgil
I bid you Goodnight.
In theory anyway.
“I should bring him the fucking helicopter and then we’ll see how paranoid I am.”
If you missed Stephen Sowley tear this one up the the other night then, well, my friend, you missed out.
A very wise pain in my ass recently told me that I should remember that there is nothing to be afraid of when falling down a rabbit hole. Especially when I dug it myself.So here goes. I am stuck in a coincidence loop that involves the words The Ambassadors, the general idea of “aliens”, the unimaginable concept of Peace and most recently, my own birthday.It all sort of stems from a science fiction idea I had about people on earth becoming “switched on” to a different way of thinking and being able to share that ability with other people. It is their goal to create Ambassadors among us who can help to welcome interactions with beings from other planets, without it turning into Multi World War I.
It is also about the people who are trying to stop them.
Here’s a hint: It won’t be “the others” that fire the first shot.
Mankind can really be a complete misnomer sometimes.
A very long time ago, I heard something in the song Pride by U2 that caught my ear. It was the sentence “Early morning April 4th a shot rang out in the Memphis sky.” I noticed it, because that was the day I was born. It turns out, it was also the day Martin Luther King Jr. was killed, ten years before I was here.
On this year long calendar of song I only get one birthday. And that day means something to me. It took me awhile to decide what song to play, but ultimately I decided to follow my own heart, because, well, some other stuff had already gone down. But later on, I couldn’t resist posting a version of Pride I found on YouTube set to footage of Dr. King. Because I think about him every year, on my special day. Personally, I thought it would be nice to remind people about him. And then I noticed what the person who posted it had to say.
It would seem, there are already Ambassadors among us.
You can forget it sometimes, but every single thing you see on the internet was put there by a human.Everything here is just a drawing on the wall of a very fancy cave.And honestly, it’s not really that weird to imagine that if you start looking into something many roads will lead you back to a root place. It will seem random at first, but it’s not. For example, if a bunch of people all wrote books about something they researched together, but you found them one by one, it might take you a while to follow them all back to the place where they began. It might seem strange, that there was a source to it, or an original seed, but really it makes perfect sense.
But you can decide for yourself what you think about whatever you want. I am not trying to point out anything but the connections I can’t help but see. It keeps leading me to the same places, and even sometimes to people who are named places.