December 28, 2010 – Song 54

I will never be able to forget one of the very first things that happened this year. It just is what it just is man.

For Esme – with Love and Squalor

I’ve been ruined I say! But at least it was in the best possible way. Song 54.

This was my horoscope today. Laugh if you want, but I think about horoscopes like wordy Rorschach tests. You see in them what you need to see.

When we strive to give up old bad habits, we sometimes find ourselves reverting to the age at which we first adopted those vices. It is as if we have to ‘re-grow’ from that point. We also have to face the demons that caused us to wander down an unwise road in the first place. That’s why many people find it so much easier to remain in a rut! The very thought now, of an upcoming New Year resolution is putting you in an odd frame of mind. Yet also, potentially, a very positive one. It’s time your life changed direction a little.

Once, a very long time ago I actually drove to Cornish, New Hampshire with a friend. Once we got there though there was nothing to do. Were we really going to go bother an old man who never really gave us anything but questions? No. We turned around after we having lunch in a diner. A diner mind you, in which not one single old man was sitting alone pondering the missing piece smack dab in the middle of his donut.

I don’t think about reading Nine Stories as my original downfall. But it was definitely my heart’s first real paper cut. It didn’t kill me, but it’s never quite healed either. Couple that with songs like this that I couldn’t play enough times and there you go.

Here is how the whole world started to eek in.

Please accept from me this unpretentious bouquet of very early-blooming parentheses: (((()))).

Jerome David Salinger January 1, 1919 – January 27, 2010

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